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[ September 10, 2019 by Mirjana Krisanovic 0 Comments ]

The beginning of my journey

Mirjana Krisanovic the only blind actress from Sweden:

When I am writing this I am siting besides my bag. I am humbling grateful to all people who support me and it feels overwhelming to think that’s just one week left to go before I will be siting on the flight to LA. It will be a honor and a pleasure to representing Sweden in World championships of performing arts 2019 and there attending as an actress.

My first dream was to become an astronaut, but when I realized that I couldn’t be that, I decided to become an actress because then I can be just anything. When I was 10 years old, I became blind and then I thought my dream was crushed, because my self-esteem and self-confidence were low because of being bullied in school. I thought I would never see the sun again and I was very sad about that. I could no longer watch movies which had been my way of escape from reality when I felt bad. It took me several years before I got out of the depression and overcame my fear of talking to people/stage fear. Yes, there have been many up and downs on a winding road. Sometimes I felt lost and had a lot of anxiety, but I never gave up even if it was a struggle.

It was my dance teacher who was the person who influenced me and inspired me to fight for my dreams. He told me “with your attitude you can climb mountains. Sky is the limit”. Of course, he meant the mountain inside my head, but I took his word literally and started with a new hobby; mountaineering. My dance teacher said I had an expressive body language when I danced; as if I was acting and he encouraged me to bet on my dream. It strengthened me that my dance teacher saw me as a human being beyond my blindness. So, I took part in some courses in acting, but since there were prejudices about what I can do as a blind person, I didn’t get any roles, which I wanted. In parallel to all auditions, I started producing my own film productions and theater plays with my friends, because I didn’t want anything to stop me being ambitious. I had never dared to dream that the spark of the fighter within me would lead me to where I am today.

It is a great honor to be representing Sweden in World championships of performing arts in July 2019. If I look back over the last few months I see that I have developed and grown both as a person and as a professional actor. It has been a challenge to explore different monologues because as an actor, I sometimes force myself to stay in a memory or a feeling that is heartbreaking or filled with anxiety. The hardest part was, however, when after three months of training I realized that the monologue I had worked at most did not work. I understood then that it was not a failure to start from scratch and find a new monologue and reminded myself of just how much I had learned during the process.

In recent months I have explored various ways in which I can present my monologues and I understand that small details in body language make a big difference in how I reach out to the audience. Due to being blind, the real feeling comes from inside and that means I do not play a feeling. However, I have learned some things when it comes to body language. In the past few months I have attended a workshop in stage fight, tested acrobatics and taken more lessons in voice acting.

My friends have been my eyes and showed me things like how feminine body language looks from a stereotypical perspective, and then I have transformed it into my own interpretation. Sometimes it still felt as though I was stuck in the process but then I always found something else to work on; For example, create my website, plan the costume for my different monologues, work on the marketing of myself, searching sponsors or something else. There are so many parts that should clave like a puzzle. The biggest challenge has been keeping the monologue for one minute. Sometimes a minute can feel like a short time as I want to say so much but other times a minute feels like a long time since I use silence in my monologue.

During the process I have discovered different exercises for concentration but also, I learned that it is important to have patience and be flexible, since things are happening spontaneously, and I don’t know how big the stage will be. I also spent a lot of time this spring to find a strategy around how I will prepare backstage before I go on stage.

In addition to training on my monologues, I have done many other things as well. I got the honor to hold a speech on the Swedish version of Oscar (Guldbaggegalan 2019), and I have worked with my upcoming feature film Look through my eyes the movie (the trailer you can see on instagram: @ltmethemovie). In order to support myself financially, I have had a full-time job alongside all this and auditions. It doesn’t sound so glamorous, right? It sounds rather stressful.

Despite stress now in preparation time, it will be a fantastic experience in LA. What I humbly hope that the World Championships of performing arts can give me useful contacts to build my network, which can lead to future upcoming projects and the opportunity to show what my strengths as an actor are.

I must be much more committed as I compete against people who see, and therefore I have to give that bit extra to prove that I am good regardless of my blindness. I look forward to the competition and the feelings are like when I am in love; as if I have butterflies in my stomach.

When I signed up for the competition I was unemployed and broke. I was a student at the university and asked myself how I can show the world that I can play as an actress even if I am blind. I felt that I really needed a change and I’m glad I was brave to dare to sign up for the competition. I have received so much inspiration and joy during this period when I have prepared myself for the competition.

My humble gratitude goes to all people who have helped me see through their eyes, given me feedback and helped me during the process. Since I get different feedback from different people I understand that it’s all about taste when it comes to art. I will take part in the contest as myself and just have fun.

Don’t miss to follow me on instagram and facebook: Mirjana’s adventures. Sending love. Best wishes from /Mirjana Krisanovic 

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[ August 19, 2019 by Mirjana Krisanovic 0 Comments ]

7 reasons why competition is a good thing.

Some of you maybe will not agree but this is my beliefs. Anyway when I talk about push your limits I mean competive with yourself.

1. It Promotes Growth

Where would we be without rivals who push/challenge you to your best? I know I would have never taken as many chances and learned as much as I have if I didn’t want to win and compete against other great people in this world.

It’s only natural; if you want to compete with someone else you have to grow. There is no way around it. That is why whenever I want to get good at something I make friends with people who are already good at it. “Winning isn’t everything, but wanting to is.”Vince Lombardi

2. It Forces Us To Be More Creative

The great thing about having competitors is that you have to be more innovative. You have to think outside the box and go after new options in order to get ahead. If everybody gave up their competitive spirit this world would be a very different place.

There wouldn’t be things like the iphone, computers or Creative writing. There just wouldn’t be the need to develop new things and go out in new directions if competition wasn’t a factor.

3. It Teaches Us

For someone to win someone else has to lose, and that sucks. But if you look at it with the right attitude this is actually a positive thing. We all lose at things here and then, the ones who learn from their losses actually turn their losses into something positive. They think in the end, every time you lose makes you to a better champion. They learn from their mistakes and take it as a positive experience which they can use to grow and win next time (and there’s always a next time).

4. It Promotes Taking Chances And Trying Something New

I am a big fan of taking chances in life. It is something you need to do in order to grow and live a life full of great experiences. I would say that one of the biggest things which promotes chance taking is competition. Healthy competition brings out a stronger you.

5. It Makes Us More Goal Oriented

Having competition makes us more goal oriented. We want to achieve more things and do more simply because we can grow ourselves compared to other people. Take away competition and we become lazy, and it becomes harder to motivate us. Competition is one of the forces that drives us to achieve.

6. Competition Prepares Us For The Real World

In this world there is a lot of competition and not everyone can be on top. You’re not the only one who is applying for a job or is trying to make something of themself. Many of your competitors have high grades just like you. So that is not the biggest factor that will influence success, it is a competitive spirit and the willingness to achieve.

The kids who had to work for their grades and actually earn them will be better prepared to succeed with their goals then the kids who got an A just because of their nice teacher.

7. It Makes Life More Entertaining

The great thing about having rivals and challenges in life is that it makes life more entertaining. It forces us to grow and to try to achieve great things. Without competition life becomes a lot less exciting and there are a lot less challenges. For a while it is nice, but as time moves forward we need something to occupy ourselves and get some meaning in life. Competition does just that.

To be involved in a competition is not all about winning. For me is nothing but have fun. Do you not think it’s fun to just play a game with your friends?